Sometimes i'm curious, do i look like a forever emo pig??? Do i always in a bad mood??? i noe i'm a bad temper gal, and i always do... But, sorry i'm not born to be a emo pig... Seriously, i juz can't control my temper... mybe, i'm born to be a emo pig... again!!! "mybe"...hate tat word x 100000.... i noe u all will say i'm childish... yes, i am.I'm da most childish 20 years old gal.... so wat??? cum and i kick me lar...i dare u!!! juz don't know why i suddenly come out with tis post...Mybe, i 'm toooooooo bored!!! do u hear me??? i'm bored... ( i noe i'm lame, but wat can i do... i'm bored!!!) =p
i went for movie on Wednesday... yup, alone again..but i really enjoy it vry much...is not a big deal to watch amovie alone...you might say i'm mad and crazy...wateverlah... Stephanie is so so so carzy... so how??? i watch Sweeney Todd...So wat can i say, Johnny Depp is hot but the movie is juz so so... Mybe i expect it more than tat but for sure, it worth to watch...
CNY is coming... but i'm not interested wif it... i hv no mood to celebrate it... mybe it was no longer special for me anymore, juz as usual,every year doing the same thing, meeting same old people and it is really damm boring sometimes even i will get sum ang pao... Mybe tis year i will get some surprise??? mybe... i'm still waiting some surprise in my life... Seriously i never get some surprise tat i'm expected ... but surprise shuldn't be expected rite??? i'm too calculative and rasional...Tat's why there are no surprise in my life....i shuld say in my entire life... i'm still waiting n waiting... mybe one day i will get wat i'm expected.... i'm tooo greedy and i never feel enuff...tat's me ~ Stephanie...

i'm back ~having a tough day on Monday,hate it!!! Seriously, the 1st time in my life time and i hope tat it will not happen anymore... i will pray hard for it b'cox it was damm pain... i havin' gastrik pain yesterday... it was not a normal gastrik pain... it was damm pain and i have a feeling tat i'm going to hell... it was horrible, terrible and vegetable... i suffer for 3 hours..i noe i can't stand it anymore... i phoned my mom and told her i havin' gastrik pain and hope tat my dad can come home and fetch me to the clinic... at 1st i thought i can drive to college and pretend tat it was only a small matter for me...cox i'm on diet so i think it was a normal gastrik pain tat i can handle it... but i'm wrong... seriously, it was pain and i hardly to breathe and i'm going to faint...luckily, doctor gif me an injection to stop my gastrik pain... it's works... thx alot...Okie, i shuld promise myself to have a proper meal and dun ever let the same mistakes happen again... i shuldn't do it for my own sake...

Tat's all ~
i have nothing to blog...
i still not feeling well...
will be back when i'm in a good condition...
when??? dunnoe, at least not now...
ciao~

2moro will be the 2nd week for my Spring semester... 1st time i feel like so excited about it... mybe i'm not excited juz i'm so worry about wat my lecturer will teach for 2moro... should do my own revision b4 my class?? i noe i should take the initiative to do some research or preparation before my the class start... Sorry to say tat, my inertia makes me feel tat i do not want to do anything.... my heart say yes but my mind say no... one word to describe myself ~ lazy... ya, i am... i'm tooo lazy to do anything, at least let me rest for tis week and i will make sure i will be more hardworking for next week... i swear !!!
i would say tat i have a tough week for last week... i was damm tired for last week... i feel like i'm so so so busy until i even can't have my own leisure time... everyday is like having some task to be complete ... ish~ luckily, everything is already settle down, tat's mean i might have a rest after tis... Hope so~
2day, i went for my pilates class... Omg!! my instructor was damm strict 2day and now i feel like my body was so tired and all my joints are so pain... one more thing ~ the music tat she plays during the class was not so nice... i noe shouldn't focus so much on the music tat she plays... but so sorry, the music was not nice and it makes me not interested wif tat class... ish ~ i noe i shouldn't do tat...
i'm no longer emo anymore... but i feel so worry... i don't noe wat i'm worry about... my anxiety makes me can't sleep well... it's true, it was almost everyday i feel like i left something to do... it will kill me one day... i think i nid to prepare a notes book to jot down everything tat i nid to complete for tat day so tat i won't forget to do anything... mybe tat will be useful to me.. ya, i noe it...
why shuld my life always come out with uncertainty... why can't i juz say... i must..i can...but why i always come out with word ..."mybe"... i noe i shuld figure it out... mybe one day or once upon a time but for sure i won't do it now...

ciao~
i nid to have a gud rest...
will be back soon ~

Class starts... i'm havin' 7 subjects for tis semester... juz like wat Darren Tan say...my life is gone... watever.. i will try my very very best to prove it... Stephanie can do it... Unfortunately, my last semester result is not damm good... so i nid put more effort for tis semester... same mistakes must not be repeat twice, but stephanie did it... it was so so so unpredictable... But suprisingly i'm not feeling down , emo or sad for my bad result ... it was so weird and i'm was so calm when i noe it... why??? hrmm, i think i nid to figure it out ... it must be something wrong with me... Having my Consumer Behavior class alone... Actually i'm was so sked but i'm still pretending tat i'm okie... i dun mind... i'm so worry b'cox i have no fren in tat class... i hate it when my lecturer say tat we nid to form a group to do our assignment b'cox i noe i will be alone... ya, i noe i shuld be more friendly and say hi to my coursemates so tat i won't be alone... but seriously i dun have any interest to be fren wif them... come on, i'm not acting cool... juz i'm not interested.. i hate group work... i have mention to my fren b4 i hate group work... i prefer doing my work by my own... and i don't know why, don't ask me...BUT if i meet a very good partner to do an assignment, i will be vry happy and enjoy it very much... unfortunately, i was quite seldom to meet a good partner... In a conclusion, i might nid to use my "fake" smile and say hi to my coursemates and make sure tat i can get a place in their group and it will be vry vry sux for me... i noe it.. Stephanie sucks...
Besides tat, i hate my LAN subjects too... i was toooo many ppl in LAN subjects and it was so obvious tat the class can't fit so many ppl and tat class is damm hot... it makes ppl hardly to breathe... urgh~ i hate to attend classess which is so crowded...it makes me hardly to focus and i can't pay attention wth is the lecturer was talkin'... hate tat~
Juz forget about it... i hope tat my Business Law class will not be so bad... i hope tat it was not crowded again... come on lar plz take tat class for next semester and let me takes it 1st... yaya, i'm damm selfish... come and kick me lar( if u dare to)...

ciao~ ~

不知何时开始
我会再次想起你
可惜现在的你
不再属于我

偶而自私的我
会想再次拥有你
而现在的你
心里是否还有我

你和她应该很快乐吧
我们不能从来
贪心的我还是会抱着希望

我知道是我把你伤透
可是爱情里不该有对错
你是否太累了而选择遗忘我

我知道我不该再奓求
只要现在的你不再难过
不会再为我流泪

我心里的遗憾会 渐渐 慢慢地 忘记
是我错过了你
还是我太贪心


* REPEAT CHORUS

你们应该很幸福


A new song tat written by me after a long long time... the melody will be upload very soon...

This morning, i hv a terrible,horrible,vegetable mood until i dunnoe how to describe it...
I can't fall asleep for the last whole nite..seriously!!! i hate tat kinda of feeling... my anxiety makes me can't sleep and i'm hardly to breathe....
I shuldn't make the same lame mistakes again... Congratulation Stephanie, you finally make it again..."again- and- again" .... i think i'm really born to be a trouble maker... or wat Chan How Theng say i shuld call " lun zun"(clumsy)... ya, i am.... i 'm the lun zun mui.... i'm not gaining anything from my previous mistakes but making a same mistakes... keep on making and non-stop...
I'm lousy, clumsy, stoo-pid and dumb... i hate who i am... but seriously i din make it purposely, mostly they are happened accidently... i'm not pretending to be a "lun zun mui" because i am, and i no nid to pretend...( don't think tat i'm a faker, i'm not, i hate faker) and i'm not proud to be a "lun zun mui"...
I noe sumbody might saying tat i'm always try to be cute... sori lor, i don't think i'm cute enuff and i'm not cute at all... if i wan 2 be cute, i think u all will cannot stand me or u all might wan 2 slap me or scream infront of me... B'cox i'm a good actress and if i wan 2 be a cute gal, i will make sure tat i'm sooooo cute until i can be nominated to be a Oscar winner...(please don't try me)... i noe sumtimes i'm not mature enuff including the way i talk, my thinking, my words etc... but for sure tat's the real me... i am who i am... if u think tat i'm fake enuff or i'm an attention seeker, u can hate me and stay away from me b'cox i won't mind... seriously i don't care but please don't talk behind of me... i do hate back stabber... u can juz tell me directly... iSh~ hate tat!!!



Finally Gary Cao ( 曹格 ) 's 3rd album has released.... his songs is nice... so far i like it vry much especially the song "无辜" .. is so so so nice.. u all shuld listen to his song... he is so talented.. and i'm so proud of him... his song makes me feel comfortable whenever i feel sad, depressed or having my insomnia... u all can try to do it whenever you feel the same thing... it might help u alot... haha, is my own opinion only lar and all depend on urself , take it or not...


也许这是最后的考验当我再度遇见了你

Yea, finally 2007 is ended... Welcome 2008!!!! Hope everything will be fine in tis new coming year... okie, for the last Christmas's eve, i will say i have the most lonely christmas eve b'cox i'm staying at home and havin' my Mc Chicken for my christmas eve... So sad!!! For my New Year's eve, luckily it was not so bored... i went for a hairdo b4 the new year... i dyed my hair and trim it... don't worry, my hair was still very long.... i've think to cut it short b4, but don't noe why i din do it.... my mom say i shuld cut it a little bit short... cox it was quite weird to see me havin' a long hair.... watever lar... i don't care.... at nite, my mom bring us to Jack's place to have our New Year's eve dinner ... So it was quite okie for me, atleast i'm not so bored and i'm not lonely at all..... Tat's all... finally i ended my 2007....
So, wat i have do for the 1st week in 2007??? Is a quite busy week for me. I went back to college to have my timetable on Wednesday. Okie, it seems like i will be vry busy for my tis semster... i have eight subjects to do.... 5 subject( not sure wat subjects), 2 LAN subjects and MUET.... At the first i nid to take TOFEL but not MUET.... But it seems like is quite little place that offer TOFEL( a english language that needed to take by all the ADP student, but luckily it can be replaed by MUET)... TOFEL is a American english language test and it was expensive ... the test paper cost about RM500 something.... Only the test not included the learning classes... Actually i'm not worry about the cost but i'm not confident wif my english.. you know my english not powerful enufff.... and i don't want to waste my mom money... For sure, if i fail the paper, she will juz scream infront of me... okie, i can imagine now...
On the next day( Thursday), i follow my dad to MBPJ to get licience for my 2 dogs... So we decided to go there after lunch... OMG!!! I noe i shuld wake up early b'cox there was alot of people are waiting at there... i reach there at 11.20am... but i finally get my licience at 4.00pm... i wait for 4 hours to get my two dogs licience...Ish, i think i shuld i ask my two dog to get their licience and i'm not the one who get for them... On Friday, i'm not very sure wat i've done on Friday... i only noe i wake up around six something in the morning and follow my dad to sent my two sister to skul.... after tat i follow my dad to his stuff.... i only noe tat when i reach home is already 8pm... On Saturday, follow my mom and dad went to Kluang.... My mom used to go there every year and i oso don't noe why... it juz like a "MUST'... Finally reach kay elle at 8pm and we have our dinner at Japanese restaurant at Sunway Pyramid.Huh, is quite a tiring week for me... at last i can have some rest on Sunday, well i wake up at 11am, have my breakfast, on9, went for yoga class, sent my two dogs to gromming at Subang ss15, having my dinner at there when i went to pick up them.... then it was the end for my Sunday... tis is how i spent my weekends...
Tis is the last week b4 i my holidays end... okie, wat i have plan to do in tis holidays, i actually din make it at all... i'm still fat... watever, aiya i oso don't care ady... i have already gif up.... so i think i shuld sleep as much as i can , eat as much as i can.. i nid to recharged my energy b4 my spring sems start... i noe my life will b'cum more hectic on tis semster... Hope tat everything will go smoothly... one more thing, my results... i'm kinda worry... hope tat my results was not tat bad... if not, i'm gonna kill by my mom.Huh! >.<
Tat's all
Ciao~