i'm havin' a tough time now... a lots of assignment are waiting for me and i noe i shuldn't blogging now... at least for this moment or after i finish all my works.. my mind say yes but my heart say no so i juz decided to follow wat my heart say b'cox i dun wan my heart to get hurt anymore... there are alots of thing happen in this week... i still feel doubt that shuld i share it out or juz keep it , but i think i will feel better after i write it out... again, if u feel borin' about wat i'm going to write , juz stay until here and dun continue to read it!!!
actually i feel quite shame when my english was judged by somebody... i noe my english was sucks (until i dunno shuld use "is" or "was", watever~) .... i noe the words i write it out is sucks but seriously i'm not writing for u to read , u're the one who choose to read it so pls dun complaining about it... my english was sucks, so wat??? i'm juz a typical malaysian who speaking or writing some broken english ... ya, i noe i ruined the malaysian's image...i'm juz so so so chinese~ ( actually i'm not good in chinese even i learn chinese b4, i'm juz not good in anything~i
'm sucks)mybe i'm juz not as lucky as you, u have a good environment to learn english or u juz have the oppurtunity tat someone can teach you how to speak fluent english and write a fantastic essay....or u can say tat i'm not hardworking enuff, lasy , dun pay attention when teacher was teaching and tat's why my english was so sucks.... come and sue me lar!!! i noe some ppl must juz feel tat being kind to tell someone tat u nid to improve ur english ... but do u noe, when u say it out , can u juz care about ppl feeling?? at least please watch out ur word when u throw it out... it is quite offensive sometimes and u might destroy someone confident.... english is important and everyone noe it... so wat?? juz assumed that i can't do it well....i got a failure in my english... so i dun mind u all looking down on me...english= high class ppl ??? is tat a true statement?? i noe some ppl would not feel it tat way but it seems tat it was a fact... people who was good in english , mostly get better respect and they can be classified as high-class ppl, is tat true?? then, i will be very sure that i'm a down-town gurl... i'm not sure tat the "someone" will read my blog ar not, i hope tat he/ she will understand my broken english... even though i say i dun mind wat they talking about me, but it's really hurt me... i dun wan 2 pretend tat i'm okie and i want to tell u " i really x3 not okie" ....
do u ever cry in ur dream??? yes, i do... yesterday night, i have a nightmare... actually i shuld say it is a bad dream... juz some bitter memories that come into my dream... i was crying in my dream, i thought it was only a dream... i'm wrong... i was actually crying in the real life... my sis wake my up and ask me why i'm crying...i'm so shock b'cox i though i was crying in my dream and i duno i'm actually crying in my real life... i din tell my sis wat was happening, i juz told her i'm having a nightmare... is not a nightmare, it was something tat really havin' in my real life... it is a bad feeling tat i'm having for so many years...
those memories really hurts me and tat's why i will cry for it even in my dream or in my real life... tis is not the 1st time i have tis kind of dreams... i really hope tat they can stay away from me... i want a sweet dream b'cox i have aredi suffering a lots in my real life.. please let me enjoy when my mind was resting.... sometimes i juz need some rest!!! i'm so so so tired...