i got my result yesterday, not too bad, better than what i've expected. Atleast i din fail any subjects in this semester. Please give me a big clap =D Finally, i can get myself into sleep last nite. recently, i found myself hard to fall asleep and it was killing me deeply. Any suggestions can make me fall asleep easily???
i've started my class on tuesday. Nothing special, everything remain the same. i saw some new faces in my college and they make me recall back the first day i study at segi, it was damm funny to me. anyway, i din feel regret about my choice. Maybe study at segi is not the best choice for me, but i really feel that i have change a lot compare to last time. From a nerd gal to a normal gal.
i have change a lot and this is what my fren always told me. i totally agree with them. the environment really make me change a lot. i never feel proud to be Stephanie. sometimes i really hate myself and i duno why i will feel it that way. i feel uneasy when people stare at me. i duno what wrong with my appearance. i din commit any fashion crimes and i just dress up like a normal people. but why people still stare at me?? i feel kinda offensive to those people who stare at me. why can't they just mind their own business... ish~
recently, i found myself fall in love with a taiwanese singer named Joanna Wang. I hope i din spell her name wrongly. She have a great voice and i'm going to buy her album to support her. I just hope taht one day i could be her but i know that my dream will never come true. I'm going to be 20 years old on this October and i think i know what a 20 years old gal should do. i have a dream before and i know that it only a dream everything will be disapper when i wake up from the bed. dreams are always beautiful and i really hope i can live in a dream and not in a realistc world. listen to Joanna Wang's music really makes me feel that i'm in my dream. haha, i'm crapping again.
actually it is good to have ur own dream, atleast you will fight for your own dream so that your life won't be so boring. i have lost my dream 2 years ago and i know my dream will never come true. that's why i seldom make wish because i know they never come true. i shouldn't say i lost my dream because i'm the one who choose to froget my dream. i have decide the road that i should take for my rest of the life. I hope i won't feel regret about it. i know it was not a best choice for me but it seems like this will be the only choice for me. So, do you still have ur dream??