hey, I'm back... hrm, sometimes I'm just wondering what should i write in my blog. Actually I have a lot of things to share with my friends but don't know
why I just want to keep it as my secret sometimes... Maybe no one will bother to know about it and i shouldn't say it out and make it as people's burden. I think it is better to handle it by my own. Okie, I'm not emo again, I'm just want to share my feelings out, that's all~ no other meaning, please don't get me wrong... sometimes i feel like I'm hard to understand, maybe I never express my feelings out or I'm just being self-center and never let people to understand me but maybe there are nobody who willing to understand me.
Instead of saying to be alone, i think I'm actually looking for a soul-mate, someone who knows whatever I'm thinking even i didn't express it out. He or she might knows me deeply, maybe knowing me more than myself, knowing every actions or words that I'm going to do. But i think it's hard to find someone like this. I don't want handsome boy or rich guy, i really don't need it. I want the secure feeling, i just want the feeling being protected. Is that sounds ridiculous to me?? ya, maybe~ I'm the one who always take good care for others and make myself look like a nanny but I really glad to see my friend being protected by me and i think it's great to have that kind of feeling. But sometimes I'm just wondering can I have that feeling too??? I'm just wondering, please don't get me wrong again.
Am I hard to be understand??? But sometimes I really don't understand what I actually want. I'm feel insecure and my life full of uncertainty and miserable...