Finally i have finish my intercultural comm. paper. What a relief! Seriously i put a lot of efforts on this paper and i hope i can get an A for this paper. Please ~ I have already few days din sleep well. My anxiety is killing me. I really hate that kind of feeling. I can even hear my heart pumping for every seconds. Damn torturing. Argh~ The dean list for last semester is out and my name still din appear in the list. I'm just wonder when i can put my name inside the dean list. I know i can do it and i know almost there and i still need a bit hard work to make it. I believe in myself. If you think you can, you can, you can!
After this week, i will have 3 weeks of holidays. I'm still wondering what i should do for my holidays. First at all, what i will like to do will be adjusting my sleeping time. I don't want to stay in front of my computer until 4am for everyday. You might just wonder how i spent my time until 4am. I have no idea how i can make it for everyday. Doing the same routine. sign in to msn messenger, waiting people to chat with me, check my hotmail, looking for interesting video, erm~ maybe download some songs, that's all. Boring rite? these are the activities i do it for everyday. Pathetic? yeah is kinda of. But instead of that, i really dunno what i still can do in the early morning. everyone is sleeping except me, the freak one. I just can't sleep. I try to put myself on bed, but end it up by looking at the ceiling until 4am. My mind will just keep on working and i will keep on thinking and thinking and this really freak me out sometimes. I hate to use my brain to think. erm~ what else i can do? maybe playing with my two dogs. But sometimes they dun even bother me at all because most of the time they are sleeping.They are just too lazy to play with me. Sad case rite? This is Stephanie's life, one word to describe - boring.
I know we need to paint out life with colors and we might be the one who make it colorful, beautiful and wonderful. My friends say that i should be satisfy what i having now because my life is better than the others. Yaya, i know i should appreciate what i have and I'm just the girl who never have enough. I always put a high expectation on myself. I always want something that different than the others. I want to change my life. Maybe sometimes I'm too harsh to myself and forget my own abilities. Who ever am i, I'm just the girl named Stephanie and she never feel enough and she want more and more.


Is time to study~
Au revoir