Holiday - Day 11 (7/8/2008)

Thursday.This week is going to end soon which mean I only have one more week of holidays. I know i will miss it very much. I love holidays and I always do. Even it was boring but I still like it. Why? Don't ask me why.
My mom was invited to attend Anya Hindmarch's fashion show on 23/8/2008 at Pavilion. My mom asks me to accompany her. Okie, I'm not excited or happy about it but I would like to accopany my mom too. I'm just wonder why her "I'm not a plastic bag" become so famous and make everyone crazy about that bag. It actually not special, it just a bag but maybe the label make it become special and some of the ceelebrities help it becomes famous and girls always like to buy bags, don't you? For sure, I'm one of them, I love to buy bags too.
Recently I'm too free so I read all of my friends's blogs to know more about thier recent lifestyle. Please don't say I busy body, I just concern about my friends and I really appreciate them. Most of my friends continue their study at local university but some of them decide to pursue their study at overseas.
Okie, when i read through their blogs especially when they talk about their recent lifestyle, I actually have the same feeling with them. Most of them actually say they don't want to grow up, they miss their secondary school life. Just like me, I miss it too. I'm afraid to grow up because what I expect is different from reality.
Reality is cruel, it is no longer beautiful dream anymore. When i was young i wish to grow up faster. I have a lot of things that I want to do when I grow up, but now there is different story. I want to stop the time and i don't want to grow up anymore. I know you all will thinK I'm childish but I don't mind. I don't want to be mature, I don't want to know how cruel is the reality world, I don't want to know what people are thinking about and I don't even want to know what people thinking about me. It is too complicated and I really feel myself stuck in the middle and don't know what should I do for the next move.
I'm happy during the holidays because I no need to meet any people and I no need to deal with them and my life become more simple. I make myself not to meet with anyone, rottering at home, do whatever i want to do. Seriously I'm enjoying my lifestyle atleast for this moment but I can't guarantee myself what will happen when my class start again. I'm like running away from the reality world and make myself stay inside my own world and inside my world there is no outsider and it is only me and my own fantasy. I'm not being emo, I'm just want some thing that is not complicated in my life because I'm not good in dealing problems.
Don't worry about me. I'm okie. When my holidays end, I will wake up from my dreams and continue with my life. I'm ready to pretend and even to become a faker or liar. Everyone in this reality world is lying to each other. No one will going to tell you the truth. They always wearing their mask and you don't even know who actually they are. Friend or foe? No one will know, you might try to figure it out but sometimes the truth is hurtful. I rather don't know anything because I don't want to get myself into problems. To make your life easy, is to make yourself get rid of problems. I'm growing up and I should know the way to deal with people. Is a long way for me to learn and I can't even predict what will happen next. I have change a lot? No, I'm not the one who changing, is the world who changing. I just follow the rules and make myself become a survivor in this reality world. If I can't stop the time, which mean I need to learn how to grow up. It is tough rite? But we need to learn. Memory will be the sweetest things in this world and it might last forvever. Don't you all agree?
Anyway, good luck to Yuet Ching. I know you will leave Malaysia tomorrow. Hope you will do well in Indonesia. Study hard and play hard too. All the best to you. Will remember you. I do have some memories with you too and i won't forget it even I grow up. =)

ciao~