Not moody. But today conversation with my friend actually remind me something, something that happened during my secondary school life. I'm not a smart person or a hardworking student. I'm lazy and I'm super duper lazy. I never finish my homework and you will find me famous because of my laziness. ( this is what i do during my 6 years primary school life) Even though I'm lazy but i still can cope with my studies.My mom always warn me if I fail to get myself stay in the top class, I will get the cane. To get rid of it, i never fail that mission. So this is how I survive for my 6 years primary school life. Am i lucky?

But there is a different story when I'm in secondary school. I can say that form 1 is still an easy job for me and I still remember my form 1 result is not bad and it's pretty good compare to my primary school achievement. Okie. I'm at 29 for the whole form 1, you might think it's easy but my school have 400 something students in form 1, so do you think it's still an easy job for a lazy student? Of course those who are in top 10 is better than me and there is no way that I can compare with them. My life is just a failure if I compare myself with them.

My nightmare comes. I think i will get the same result for my rest of the life. I'm wrong and I fail it when I'm in form 2. I'm from 29 become 92. I still remember what my teacher told my mother when my mom comes to collect my result. I know my mom is disappointed with me. I will say that is the first time I feel sorry to my mom. I never say sorry to my mom before and that is my first time I say it. I thought my mom will scold me and I'm sked she might cane me as well. But my mom didn't say anything. I promise my mom I will study hard and prove it to her. Finally I did it but I'm no longer getting 29 anymore. If I'm not mistaken I get 57 for the whole form 2 in the final exam. Okie, I know it's not a very good result but I'm still happy with it. My mom din scold me because she know I have put a lot of efforts on it.

So, since that day I tell myself, if i want to get something I need to work hard. So whenever i fail to get something that I want, I will ask myself : did i work hard?
I try to do something that I won't regret for my rest of the life because I hate the feeling of being regret on something and I hate to become a loser. You can say that I'm "kia su" but whatever is it, I really don't mind. I care for own feeling rather than what people say to me. This is me ~ Stephanie Hoh.