You leave me SPEECHLESS.,

I'm watching this...

And I heart this...

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

3:12:00 PM

I'm back...

Holidays is super duper fun.

Having a great time at Lang Tengah...

I like my holidays, how bout yours?

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

2:52:00 PM

翘翘板

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

10:28:00 PM

Again, I lost myself...
Don't worry there is nothing happen.
I just doubt with what I doing now.
A lot of thinking have been done lately.
But without any conclusion or solution.
And this is the worse part ~
I'm standing at the crossroad again ~
A lot of choices, a lot of possibilities and a lot of factors need to be considerate.
Currently everything is in the safe mode.
And I found that I hardly walk out.
A lot of courage are needed
Will this be my destiny or I have a better choice?
I reluctant to think and I just want everything back to their pace.
Sometimes people just don't need changes, even though it could be good or maybe bad?
I'm confuse.
This is true.
I'm not emo, please!
I just lil confuse or maybe doubt or maybe hesitate with my recent life.
That's it... Just as simple as ABC...
Or maybe I'm the one who make it complicated.
I can just fake my smile and pretend I'm happy
And there will be no one know what I am thinking.
That's me
I never have enough!
I'm greedy!
I need more and more.
I will never appreciate what I have and never feel satisfy with it.
But again, if you questioned me what I want, I probably can't tell you the answer.
Because me, myself not even know what I want.

That's why I'm lost again!

* the worse part is I never feel that I'm xx xxxx ~

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

10:42:00 PM

Another day =(
Three days before Lang Tengah trip...
Ten days before college re-open...
Sigh~

And I'm tired again =(
I sleep for 12 hours but I still feel tired.
I feel my body is exhausted and I need some energy to work my body on.
12 hours of sleep seems is not enough for me.
Maybe I need to hibernate just like what a polar bear do.
Wish me good luck then.
I just wonder whether I still remember who am I after I start on hibernate.
I love sleeping because that the only way I can stop to think!
I hate to think.
I rather myself become stoo-pid.
Whenever I'm using my mind, I feel that I'm getting older...
EXCUSE?
obviously yes, it's a lame excuse to make myself stop thinking.
Bla bla bla.
I'm lame!

Tomorrow is another day~
I hope there will be some excitement.
Even though my life is lifeless as usual.
Signing out~

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

8:26:00 PM

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

9:48:00 PM

Haloha everyone.
Is me again.
I have a splendid moments with my friends on today.

Guess what?

My friends and I having shopping spree at The Curve.

Thanks Moon for the Birthday Voucher. =)

Love you.

Having lunch at Italiannes.

Have a great chat with my friends.

Love that!

There are a lot of possibilities could happened around us, agree?

Haha... I agree!

Shopping is great but it can be tiring too.

I'm happy to get something for myself.

And now I'm officially broke again. Lol.

I need more cash to buy more stuff.

Looking for a new handbag? tote? hobo bag?

Whatever la, as long as it looks nice on me and it makes me comfortable to spent on it.

Boo~

Pictures of the day:

The only place that I could spend now --- Padini (cheap & afordable)

I love bread especially Italiannes's bread!

Me and Moon (Someone is missing)

Me and the mirror. ( desperately need it in my room)

I never miss my ikea's ice cream =) Ice-cream lover

That's all for today! Will be staying at home for whole day tomorrow.Another long long day.Sigh~

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

9:57:00 PM

Another late post...
Will be on bed soon...
Meet u guys tomorrow...
xoxo
Have a nice dream!

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

2:15:00 AM

Good morning everyone.
Is 12am now.
So it is morning.
Lame =p

Recent life is okie.

Everything is fine

I didn't get myself emo for last week.

I get to control myself well.

Give me a big clap please =)

Lang tengah trip on the 24 May.

A lot of things to prepare.

Shades? Body lotion? Shampoo? Sun block? bla bla bla....

I just know I can't miss any one of them.

I will die.

Seriously, die very hard. =/

How I spent my time for this week?

I guess I will do a lil shopping with my friends.

I have spotted two high heels last week and my instinct told me I should have it.

Okie, maybe I will get it this week. =)

I think I still need a bag from Charles & Keith.

I think I will get something from there... Bag? heels?

No idea.. we will see soon..

One more thing : I never do shopping with my bf, I scared to let him see the way I spent my money. Lol!

I need a hairdo?

erm, maybe~

Still wondering should I keep my long hair or get something new for my hairstyle...

think think think!

So confuse, I have a lot of things to be done before Jun and I have limited cash now.

So sad~

I think I need to eat less so that I have more cash to spend.

Booo~

Pictures of the day: ( I can be very vain. This is true)

Ciao ~

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

12:00:00 AM

Good morning everyone.

is 3.34am now.

Okay, whenever my sleeping problem occurs, I hardly fall asleep.

And I'm here writing a new post for my blog.

Nothing much to say.

Celebrate Yann Yun birthday on Friday.

So I'm here to wish her :

HAPPY BIRTHDAY =)

May all your wish come true.

Meet Darren Yap and Titus after Yann Yun birthday celebration.

Okay we have some so called healthy discussion ... or maybe debate..Lol

Anyway I do think it's fun even though some of us have different wave length with each other

Miss you guys a lot.

Hope to catch up with you all soon.

Au Revoir ~

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

3:33:00 AM

Finally Charmane was discharged from suspected getting dengue.
Congrats!
At least I would not have to wake up early for every morning to sent her to hospital to have her blood test.
I guess I can have a good sleep for today.
Hospital is terrible horrible and vegetable.
Everywhere is surrounded with bacteria.
And I was so sked that myself will get infected as well and I never want to miss out my Lang Tengah trip with my friends.=) Pray hard for getting healthy.
After come back from hospital, I get myself to the bed again.
I'm totally exhausted and my mind is telling me I need to sleep.
And I just follow my mind --- sleep!
Wake up at 1.30pm, get myself prepared.
Went out to have lunch with my bf.
We have pan mee at Puchong.
Don't know why we always eat the same thing whenever we go out for meal.
But seriously, I really like the pan mee and the honey milk very much and I almost eat the same things whenever I been there.
After that we headed to Sunway Pyramid to watch X-Men... ( I don't remember the full name, sorry)
Okie, the movie is just okie for me because I seldom watch action movie and they look so fake for me.
No offence please!
After movie, I decided to buy some J CO donuts to let my bf try because he never eat J CO donuts before and he is a huge fans of Big Apple donuts whereas I prefer J CO donuts more. =P
We spotted those small mini donuts which is cute enough for me and we decided to buy that.

Pictures of the day:

Isn't they look lovely?

Me and my bf

Another pics from us.

* I never look good beside him. Don't ask me why =/

Self pics from Mr.Cool XD

That's all ~

Will be back on tomorrow if I have mood to blog. =)

Ciao

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

10:47:00 PM

Welcome back !!!

I'm kinda hardworking lately.

I almost update my blog for everyday.

Sue me for being hardworking. =p

Sleeping problem occurs.

I almost sleep at 4am for everyday.

Okie, I know it is not healthy.

What to do, I just can't sleep.

But anyway I would like to thanks "someone" who accompany me for every night. ( You know who you are)

Life is unpredictable.

You can't predict what will happen next.

And again I still feel miserable with my life.

Sigh~

Lately, I'm thinking of my future.

Nowadays, economy is bad --- recession.

Jobs are limited now.

I just wondering should I continue my studies with MBA or start working after finish my degree.

Hard to decide =.=

Any idea?

Whenever come to this, I will get headache.

Lazy mind, lazy me!

Listening to Jay Chow 七里香's album.

Recall back all the memories that I have during that period.

Even it is not sweet memories but at least I have go thru it.

I'm the girl who hardly walk out from the past.

A lof of feelings aroused me now.

=(

Try hard to walk out.

I know I can do it.

Every steps that I have taken is to prove that I'm strong and tough.

Even I'm not...

I always look like a freak and I'm not acting cute puh-lease~

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

5:18:00 PM

Another hot day =.=
Weather is damn hot nowadays.
I shower atleast 5 times per day.
And yet I still feel hot.
Bad weather --- praying for rain.
Busy day.
Make me feel exhausted but can't sleep --- too hot!
I guess tomorrow will be the other busy day.
I can't load my restaurant city... =(
Get addicted with it.

*Miss him =(

Another lame post from Stephanie ^.^

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

9:25:00 PM

I love music.

But it was long long time ago.

I still love music but there is something else more important than music.

It has been edges I din touch my piano.

I feel strange when I touch my piano again.

So sad --- I abandon my piano, she no longer important in my life~

I have lost my passion towards music.

I have lost my motivation in composing ( even though I'm not very good with it)

I almost lost everything in my life.

I never put efforts in hold back, that's why I lost them!

Things comes, things go.

What comes around, goes around as well.

I know this is a lame excuse for stop touching my piano.

But I still love my piano but just not as much as last time.

I still remember what I have promise to myself.

A gift for myself ~

I will buy myself a white baby grand when I have earned enough money. ( wondering when I will earned enough)

Daddy promise to buy me one if I can finish my Grade 8 but eventually I stop it when I was grade 7.

I have no more motivation to continue my Grade 8.

I know it was a waste for me since my parent have invest on me for past 10 years.

Sorry papa mama...

I know sorry can't help much but I really mean it. =)

Stop putting expectations on me, because I never accomplish any of them...

Music rocks!

Stephanie sucks!

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

10:43:00 PM

Late post ~
Just got the pictures yesterday night =)

5/5/2009

Moon and How Theng 'BIG DAY'

Happy Birthday

Let's the pictures talk!

Birthday girl -- Moon

Birthday boy - How Theng

Me and birthday girl =)

Our group picture (some members are missing)

Anothergroup picture =)

pey, jean, moon and me

Me and py

Me and Birthday boy

Me and white baby piano ( I heart it) =)

Me and my dear dear =)

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

4:19:00 PM

Finally, i get myself created a new email address again.
Sorry to my fellow friends for all the inconvenient that caused by me.
I hope this will be the last time.
If not, I'm will be stop using window live messenger.
I know it's impossible.
To get my new email --- please leave me a message or ask me personally.
Thanks a lot!
Have a nice day!

HAPPY MOTHER DAY!

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

12:30:00 AM

I'm weak.
I'm not as tough as everyone thought I should be.
People's expectation drive me crazy.
I want my life back.
I'm just me.
I'm nothing.
Sometimes I'm not even myself.
Who am I?
Again, I'm lost.
This time please leave me alone.
Let me drowned.
I will be awake...
Just not at this moment.

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

7:52:00 PM

I should trust you more...
Maybe ~

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

12:20:00 AM

Another dissapointment =(
I don't know how long I could stand for it...
But atleast not tonight..
Because I'm exhausted...
Is really damn exhausted...
Silence please...
I want to shut my mind down tonight!

If loving you is to bear all the pains that you give...
Maybe I shouldn't love you anymore...

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

11:25:00 PM

You make me feel upside down...
And I get depress easily without any reasons...
I know it's not your fault and so sorry I do this to you...
Am I sick?
I really don't know...
I'm unpredictable...
I'm emotional...
It's complicated and I'm tired...
I think I need a break...

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

9:34:00 PM

Holidays ~

Something that I craved for few months ago and finally I have it now...

But It seems like I'm not interested with it anymore...

Holidays = lifeless

When you have nothing to do during your holidays, it could be a sad case for you.

Wake up in the afternoon, looking for food, sitting in front of the computer, waiting everyone comes back, dinner time, and time for bed time story again...

The most "interesting" part is you might continue the same routine for every single day of your holidays...

Come to this point, should I be glad that I'm having my one month semester break?

I'm afraid that I'm not...

One thing that I love about holidays will be the free time that I have it...

I can be alone at home for whole day...

Doing my own stuff without anyone disturbing me...

Think back all the stuff that I have done for the past few months...

Re-arrange all the memories that I have for the past few months as well...

And now I found that sometimes being alone doesn't mean that I'm feel lonely or somehow...

Anyway, I have been alone for my past 20 years and I don't mind to being alone again :)

There are a lot of things happened during this few months...

I try very hard to help myself walk away from the past...

But I still found myself standing at the same place...

I feel insecure...

This is true..

Insecure about my relationship, friendship and etc...

Insecure or uncertainty?

I don't know...

Sometimes I really want to find out what is happen around me but I'm scared to know the truth...

And again, I choose to stay inside my safe zone --- my own territory

I'm weak even though I look strong...

I'm scared but no one knows...

I try to pretend but I know I can't...

I'm faking myself...

I'm not the person that you think I should be...

Sorry for disappointed all of you...

At the end...

I look like an amateur...

I can't bear it anymore...

I know the limits...

I'm tired

&

exhausted

Can I take a break?

When the curtains down, everything should be back to normal...

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

9:58:00 PM

Is May 2009...
Time flies...
It comes to the mid-year of 2009...
Another 7 months to go and hopefully I can end my studies life at the end of 2009...
2 more semesters to go...
Study hard, no regrets, graduate with first class honour ( this is impossible =p)
Anyway I hope that everything will runs smoothly and there shouldn't be any "accident" happened...
I'm getting older and older...
Hrmph...
Can I stop the time?
Please....

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

11:31:00 PM

Everything is over...
Just let it be...
This time I really don't care...
I'm so sick about that...

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

12:13:00 AM

The worst feeling that I ever have ------ feeling of insecurity.

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

12:38:00 AM